I wake up, and I forget I already dreamt it. Maybe because it felt so real, I figured it had already happened. The mind is complex, and I wonder what it means. I wonder where it comes from. And I wonder. I wonder if it’s real, something that lives deep, deep inside me. Something reserved …
“You will love 28”
It was the summer of my 27th year on this earth. I underwent a big life change and my romantic life was at ground zero - though I knew it was nothing I couldn't get over. I was talking to someone about my recent break-up as a way of processing the details. Amid this conversation, …
Limbo & Faith, Pain & Love
I wrote a letter to God recently. I was initially talking to Him, but I wanted to write it down to remember what I said. It was in the evening, and I turned off my bedroom light and used a small light from a compact mirror to help me see while I transcribed my thoughts. …
Rooting for the Other Woman
The Curious Cat You're in a committed relationship and things are going relatively well. One day someone unexpectedly walks into your life and they start to take up a lot of space in your head. You soon begin to question your satisfaction in the current relationship. If you don't act on this new feeling, you …
When the Exit Closes
I drove down a new road on a promising night; It was the kind of night that you remember. There was something special about the way the sun was setting As I navigated to find a place for the next adventure. As exciting as these new roads were, I felt my mind so close to …
The Broken Teacup
There was this teacup I used to pour my favorite herbs. I held it multiple times a day and it always kept me warm. After some wear and tear, parts began to break. I couldn't bring myself to discard it and instead stored it away. Either way, I found no use for it as summer was fast …
Unfaded
You are there every day. Sometimes loudly, Other times, very faint. So faint, I think you are almost gone. So faint, I can hardly hear your name. But my God. Sometimes you are so loud, Like blood pulsating heavily near my eardrum. And my heart gets tired and heavy. So, so heavy on those loud …
Morning Battles, Evening Wins
Two weeks ago I had an emotionally excruciating week. It was probably the toughest I've had in a while. The weekend definitely took the cake. It was very difficult for me to get out of bed each morning. Was it the jet lag? The state where my conference took place the previous week was only …
Filling up the Void
There was a void when you left. A melancholic emptiness. No appetite to move. No desire to be seen. Much less, let the sunlight nourish the void. Tempted to lose my faith. And vulnerable to becoming jaded, like you. I pondered at the depth of this emptiness. I asked myself why this numbness occurs and what I …
Blissful State of Mind
I tried to steer away from writing about anything new year related. Partly because as I mentioned in my last blog, I believe that goals and habits can begin at any time. So I must admit that this time around, it was easy for me to become captivated by the New Year sensation. This is …
